FOR 10 years, madala Samuel Molefe (75) from Orlando East in Soweto has been praying to his ancestors to take him.
a�?But they wona��t let me die,a�? he told Daily Sun.
a�?They come back in dreams and tell me that I am too ugly to die.a�?
The madala, who rents a shack in a backyard, said his life is a mess.
a�?Nothing I try to do works out. Ia��m old and tired.a�?
He said three times he has tried taking his life but failed.
a�?In 2014 I took poison. It didna��t kill me because I vomited it all,a�? he said.
He said in 2016 he tried hanging himself in his shack.
a�?I tied the rope to the roof, stood on top of a bucket and kicked it away a�� but the roof fell down.a�?
He said the last attempt was in June this year.
a�?I went to the railway line in Orlando and sat there all day but a train never came.a�?
He heard later the trains were not working and would not be working for some time.
a�?All attempts have failed but I havena��t given up. I still want my ancestors to do the honourable thing and take me.a�?
The madala said his living family as well as his late family had deserted him.
a�?I dona��t see the point of living only to be a burden to people. Ia��ve been poor all my life. Maybe I will find happiness on the other side.a�?
Sangoma Jabulani Mthimkhulu said that the madala needs to wait for his time.
a�?Perhaps God still has plans for him,a�? he said.
Joburg therapist Samkelisiwe Magudulela said the madala seemed to be suffering from depression and needed to see a doctor immediately for help. a�� Online